Enki
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You may ask what was the fast for, I didn't hear of any fast coming up.
Last month, June 21 at around 200 in the morning, I hit rock bottom in my life. There was so much pressure on my from my work, from my family, from school, but above all, from myself to perform at a high standard in everyday life, that it really got to me. I became depressed for three months prior to June 21.
During that time, I had given up on Christ and God. I didn't think there was a heaven and hell. I'd say to myself, even if there was a heaven and a hell, I knew I was going to hell, so who cares?
I had talked to a very good friend of mine before I hit full denial and he told me that one day someone will come into my life, it may not be now, it may not be for a few years, but one day they will walk into your life and bring you back to Him. I didn't think anything like that would happen to me and just brushed it off.
On June 20th I was on my lunch break with a very good friend of mine from work. We are coworkers in Emerg. We were watching a man try to park his car and did a pretty crappy job of it. He was probably 80 or something. That was when this woman out of no where starts talking to us. She started telling us about how depressed she was in life and how one day she just hit rock bottom and felt Jesus with her in the room. She also said how he pushed her down gently and she fell on knees and cried all night.
Working in Emerg, we see a lot of psycho patients, and we dismissed her as one of those. So as we were about to leave, I shook her hand (don't know why) and the grip and gaze she gave me, I still remember it today. It was deep and pure, I can't explain it.
So I was talking to this coworker of mine at 1am and that was when I started getting angry and upset. It wasn't directed towards the coworker, just in general about life. My grandma has also been on my mind for a while because she is very sick in the middle east and we fear her time is near. So with both of those on my mind, I lost it. I tried hanging up but I couldn't do it. Finally I put the pillow on my face to yell and thats when my life changed.
As soon as I closed my eyes. I saw what I immediately believe was Jesus with my grandmother. As soon as I took the pillow off my face, this huge presence was felt in the room. As if someone or something was in there but everywhere. My family is DEEPLY spiritual and I immediatly knew what it was. My sister had a night where she met Jesus and described the same feeling I was going through at the moment.
I began to cry (keep in mind, the phone is still on my ear). I was apologizing to Him and it felt as if he was talking to me through my friend on the phone. The sudden change of tone from my friend, and the words used just seemed to be someone else talking through her. The words were deep and powerful and I knew it wasn't her talking to me. I cried uncontrolably for a good hour.
When I finally felth the pressure ease, I managed to stop crying and get up to grab the tissue box on the floor next to my bed. I get up and grabbed it. As I turned to face my bed, the pressure came back immidately. This time I cried but couldnt move my body. All of a sudden I felt something push on my back and i collapsed on my knees crouched over the side of my bed. Crying.
I managed to raise my head and the first thing that caught my eye was my cross beside my bed. It was a very scary yet amazingly calming experiance. After getting my composure back, I decided I needed to pray. I told my friend I'd call back when I was done. THis is now 4am.
The first person that came to my mind was the friend I spoke with who told me I'd meet someone that would change my life without knowing it. I called him and left a message. He ended up calling me back within 10 min (I think I scared him jareh, I was crying when I was talking to him...lol). We talked about it. He told me how to pray (didn't know how to actually pray. don't really understand what we say when we're in church) and I prayed that night.
The next morning, I decided to fast for a month without any meat (including fish) or alcohol except the wine at church. I also decided to put a donation to the ACOE and that I'd attend mass at any church every sunday.
My grandma is still sick, but she didn't pass. Although I know after this vision that even if she does, I can take comfort in knowing He's beside her and watching over her. That she'll be in great company and in a comfortable place when she does indeed pass.
This really has changed my life. I haven't told many people this, only close friends and family. I hope this experiance will be able to bring back the faith in God in others who are on the brink of denial. He is in fact real and even though he may not show Himself to you or even though He may not answer ALL of your prayers, understand that He is around you ALL the time and He does love and cherish you. All He asks for is faith. For you to believe in Him.
I hope you all enjoyed this story and keep Him close to your hearts. He loves you and will always love you no matter what.
John 9:25 - He answered and said, Whether he be a sinner [or no], I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see.
Last month, June 21 at around 200 in the morning, I hit rock bottom in my life. There was so much pressure on my from my work, from my family, from school, but above all, from myself to perform at a high standard in everyday life, that it really got to me. I became depressed for three months prior to June 21.
During that time, I had given up on Christ and God. I didn't think there was a heaven and hell. I'd say to myself, even if there was a heaven and a hell, I knew I was going to hell, so who cares?
I had talked to a very good friend of mine before I hit full denial and he told me that one day someone will come into my life, it may not be now, it may not be for a few years, but one day they will walk into your life and bring you back to Him. I didn't think anything like that would happen to me and just brushed it off.
On June 20th I was on my lunch break with a very good friend of mine from work. We are coworkers in Emerg. We were watching a man try to park his car and did a pretty crappy job of it. He was probably 80 or something. That was when this woman out of no where starts talking to us. She started telling us about how depressed she was in life and how one day she just hit rock bottom and felt Jesus with her in the room. She also said how he pushed her down gently and she fell on knees and cried all night.
Working in Emerg, we see a lot of psycho patients, and we dismissed her as one of those. So as we were about to leave, I shook her hand (don't know why) and the grip and gaze she gave me, I still remember it today. It was deep and pure, I can't explain it.
So I was talking to this coworker of mine at 1am and that was when I started getting angry and upset. It wasn't directed towards the coworker, just in general about life. My grandma has also been on my mind for a while because she is very sick in the middle east and we fear her time is near. So with both of those on my mind, I lost it. I tried hanging up but I couldn't do it. Finally I put the pillow on my face to yell and thats when my life changed.
As soon as I closed my eyes. I saw what I immediately believe was Jesus with my grandmother. As soon as I took the pillow off my face, this huge presence was felt in the room. As if someone or something was in there but everywhere. My family is DEEPLY spiritual and I immediatly knew what it was. My sister had a night where she met Jesus and described the same feeling I was going through at the moment.
I began to cry (keep in mind, the phone is still on my ear). I was apologizing to Him and it felt as if he was talking to me through my friend on the phone. The sudden change of tone from my friend, and the words used just seemed to be someone else talking through her. The words were deep and powerful and I knew it wasn't her talking to me. I cried uncontrolably for a good hour.
When I finally felth the pressure ease, I managed to stop crying and get up to grab the tissue box on the floor next to my bed. I get up and grabbed it. As I turned to face my bed, the pressure came back immidately. This time I cried but couldnt move my body. All of a sudden I felt something push on my back and i collapsed on my knees crouched over the side of my bed. Crying.
I managed to raise my head and the first thing that caught my eye was my cross beside my bed. It was a very scary yet amazingly calming experiance. After getting my composure back, I decided I needed to pray. I told my friend I'd call back when I was done. THis is now 4am.
The first person that came to my mind was the friend I spoke with who told me I'd meet someone that would change my life without knowing it. I called him and left a message. He ended up calling me back within 10 min (I think I scared him jareh, I was crying when I was talking to him...lol). We talked about it. He told me how to pray (didn't know how to actually pray. don't really understand what we say when we're in church) and I prayed that night.
The next morning, I decided to fast for a month without any meat (including fish) or alcohol except the wine at church. I also decided to put a donation to the ACOE and that I'd attend mass at any church every sunday.
My grandma is still sick, but she didn't pass. Although I know after this vision that even if she does, I can take comfort in knowing He's beside her and watching over her. That she'll be in great company and in a comfortable place when she does indeed pass.
This really has changed my life. I haven't told many people this, only close friends and family. I hope this experiance will be able to bring back the faith in God in others who are on the brink of denial. He is in fact real and even though he may not show Himself to you or even though He may not answer ALL of your prayers, understand that He is around you ALL the time and He does love and cherish you. All He asks for is faith. For you to believe in Him.
I hope you all enjoyed this story and keep Him close to your hearts. He loves you and will always love you no matter what.
John 9:25 - He answered and said, Whether he be a sinner [or no], I know not: one thing I know, that, whereas I was blind, now I see.
